Laziness

” Lazy? I’m not lazy, I just refuse to do it, that’s all” – by DSvT (1980 ~ )

How many hours, how many days? My time just slipping away… I don’t know what to do daily, I wake up, goto work, go back home, watch TV, then sleep… Repeat*

What is the purpose of life? Why I feel so pointless? A lot of thing happened, I heard, I know, but I just don’t want to give a damn on it. I know I should help, and maybe I might solve the problem as well, I just don’t know why I need to do so? I never face this kind of situation before, life without direction, just like a kite without a string… fly and don’t know when can stop and landing…

Sitting at my office, I’m watching others who full of hope, direction, they know what they want, what they need to do the next… Maybe I should ask them “Do you what you’re doing now?”, I don’t know how many people can answer this question, but for me, I don’t have the answer for it.

“Am I tired?”, Maybe yes. I had been working for 4 year after grad… Review my achievement, basically I do not achieve any great result…

“I getting paid for doing nothing?” Nope, I got hell a lot task to do daily, Multi task is a common word in Japanese company… Maybe I being trained to become superman, I solve all the problem within short time and then feel emptiness after that…

As Gemini, I always look for new experience… but now, I’m statics, not moving at all, so lazy… I just refuse to accept new things, reject alll new friends, items and started to lock myself and hide from everyone…

Emmm… Why I still writing at here… ironic..

I need some fun…

All I can say is “I don’t feel happy these few days”.

Maybe is because I had been sick for a week. And all the work stress/pressure/tension, and some other factors. I really need some break, I need some time to free my mind, refresh it. Yes, I really need it indeed.

So, tomorrow 30/March… 8 friends and I will go up to Genting Highland to get some fun. Basically all the boys’ purpose to genting is go for casino, so I think I might spend my night in Casino too… Hopefully I don’t loose too much in there… For me, I will try to search for some quiet coffee shop, settle down, order a cup of latte, and rest… I already forgot how long I never rest after the previous Penang trip…

I see…

Yesterday, I saw you, in MSN Messenger… I wish to greet you “Hi, how are you?”… But I worry I might make you feel sad, make you recall all the bad memories. I keep quiet, staring at your Messenger nick… [~M_____~], so many memories flashing in my mind, so nice , so sweet and so sad too…

Dear, Please take care yourself. The same thing I say again… “I believe, we’ll meet each other next time, for sure…”