Direction/Decision… I need this to move on…

If we already make some kind of decision and we decided to let someone go… please dun think twice, let him/her go… let them break free…

So, If you already make up your mind to dump me, please dun give me hope, dream, any future plan, ok? I can’t take it anymore… My hard-disk is too good to keep everything you said and it will replay it everyday, all your words, all your future plan, all the dream that you gave to me… These really make me sick… STOP!

Please… Confirmation make by you, not me… let me go… if you dun want me… go back to where you come from, that is where you decided to be…right? believe on your own decision! Our bora-bora island tour will never come true, That’s all!

Scary Movie 4 (Night after OT)

I love to watch comedy… Comedy ease my life which full of problem…

Yesterday(Emm…consider this morning), I reached home around 03:00am. After bath, I eat my late supper/my early breakfast… Then I notice that I haven’t watch the “Scary Movie 4″ which I brought few days ago… So, I start to watch that movie from 03:30am… Wooo… that movie really improve a lot from the previous, this time the based story based on the “War of the world”… but added in many stupid/silly ideas… Haha… I love this movie, this movie make me think of “Hot shot” which is the same type of movie… they use other famous top ranking movie story-line as base and added/modified it become stupid movie…

I watch until 04:15am, all my body and mind already run out of energy… I shut off everything in my room and shut of my own processor (my mind)… and I slept…

I called again…

Yesterday, Dunno why… keep on staring on my desktop, then pick up the phone & call… Wa… really longtime never hear her voice, the voice which 24.7 also so nice to hear about…
We talked, We Laughed, We tease each other & I hang up the phone finally…

Conversation between us is not allow… and not advisable… not wise too… but we continue to maintain this… until I change my phone-line, I think… <– this should be the best way for all of us… Coz, no matter when,where,how…once I received her sms, I’ll respond automatically without think twice <—this is dangerous act…

This morning, My mum asked me about this; she said “how you fall in love with a stranger which you never met before? I also do not understand. If you didn’t admit this, I won’t believe at all, even Agnes told me this. But now I understand & believe, it happened. Oh, god!” Haha… Alan <—already become a bad boy in everyone mind, I deserved it, I won’t regret too…

Now, I’m in the office again… Doing nothing, but my mind working very hard to think, consider, re-call all the memories in me… All the things which happened just like slide show flashing in my mind and gone… just like formatting hard-disk… Hopefully this worked! & I’ll be break free..