What should I do?

“I in de hospital now, I see many baby, they’re so cute..”
“then you imagine that is our tze ting, tze ying and tze wei which won’t exist”
“If it become real, they are so small and cute”
“dun understand… but nevermind”
“I mean if they’re Melody,sydney & Angelo,you would be their daddy”
“how could it be true if I jz a normal ppl at here?dun make me dream again,k?”
“ting zhu xian,k?”
“no need”

Why everytime you broke my heart and you let me have the fantasy dreaming again? Why? What should I do in this issue? currently, I’m in the middle of the ocean… there are 2 main land which suppose I should go for, 1 of them dun let me aboard, the other start to send signal to reject my aboard… So, I’ll be lost into the thin air… amen…

生命!いのち! LIFE !

“It’s not true that life is one damn thing after another; it is one damn thing over and over.”
By Edna St. Vincent Millay (1892 – 1950)

Agreed.

Alan’s version “life is one damn thing over and over each day.”

Everytime you work hard/you put a lot of effort to do something, things always turn you down. Many obstacle will appear infront you, you feel hard to move on… eventhough you try hard to overcome it, it still remain there and will repeat again n again… until you fed up and give up…

Life is short, Play Hard! <— Life is Shit, dun shit around!

I dun meant it!

Haiz…
I am so unlucky recently, all the bad things happened at the same time… been dumped by someone, going to be dump by another one, moreover tonnes of work problem awaiting me to solve…

Just now Agnes informed me that she is sick (not feeling well, maybe fever)… I know, I worry but lot of meeting have to attend… thought of settle problem asap and go home earlier for her… Suddenly incoming sms during meeting… “I’m sick but you oso dun sms me, but you can call to sabah always. What you mean?” <–> By reading this sms, my heart was so pain… why she got this kind of thinking? is not true! Alan did not sms/call Agnes mainly due to too busy…

Yes, is true that I used to call to sabah most of the time before this… eventhough now, I oso always think of call to sabah most of the time… but that sweet moment would not repeat anymore.. now, I call to there will only create fantasy story in my dream which will make me confuse again… I can not let myself go back to that time…

I love Agnes with my fullest heart.
and… haiz…

We’re Creep! 私たちは変人です !

I like this song very very much, I love the lyrics…
We’re special coz WE’RE WEIRDO!

Radiohead › Creep

When you were here before
Couldnt look you in the eye
Youre just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
Youre so fuckin special

But Im a creep, Im a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.

I dont care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When Im not around
Youre so fuckin special
I wish I was special

But Im a creep, Im a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.

Shes running out again,
Shes running out
Shes run run run running out…

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
Youre so fuckin special
I wish I was special…

But Im a creep, Im a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.
I dont belong here.

What is it mean?

“Can you take care him for me?” ….. asked
“Ok, Alright.” ….. Answer
What does it mean? “Take care” in the question should refer to what level of take care? and “Take care” in the answer refer to what kind of “ok” & “take care”?

I don’t know and will never know…

My thursday morning…

People always do a lot of things, make a lot of arrangement to enable other people to have a better life… I agreed on this theory, but not all the time have the good result.

Yesterday, my mum knows about my experience past few months, my mum could not believe that it could happened to her son, me. She just tell Agnes “Do not think too much, could not be true.” Haha… I’m a very very good boy to my mum till she could not believe the fact. I keep on thinking… & sleep at 1am…